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The last blog that I wrote had some very interesting reactions.  I had four different people that were mad at me because they were sure that I was talking about them.  So apparently the “sarcastic person” is also the “everyone is always talking about me person” as well, but that is for another blog.  One question that did come up, from a variety of different places, is what then do we do with personality? 

I tend to be very optimistic and have a hard time finding areas that being optimistic can be a negative thing. (Wow that was the dumbest sentence ever) But over the years I have realized that it can be a bad thing.  I can look at a bad situation and find something that is good about it.  But i don’t think that always finding the good is necessarily a positive thing.  When someone is hurting and I am optimistic I have to realize that my optimism can have the tendency to minimize what the other person is feeling.  There are times when sorrow is necessary and people need to go through that.  I have to realize that blind optimism can in fact hurt as much as it helps. 

I think that the key then is knowing the areas that you are likely to fail in.  Introspection is something that most people do not spend much time doing.  I know that there are attributes of personality that we are born with and we will probably always have.  But I still don’t think that is an excuse for crappy behaviour.  In the end we all must be aware of what we do and say and be open to God transforming us, instead of leaning on our personalities and continuing in crappy behaviour.  What do you think?

I have climbed the mountain of pessimism and I think that I have reached the pinnacle.  I have finally decided what annoys me more than anything in the whole world is…the self described sarcastic person.  But first a few caveats.  I am not opposed to sarcasm as it can be a useful  tool of communication.  I will admit that sarcasm at times is needed and should be utilized in certain instances.  I don’t mind self deprecating sarcasm for the most part.  What annoys me though is when people use “I am just a really sarcastic person” as an excuse to be a jerk.   

First off I want to state that I am not talking about any one person in particular, in fact, I may even be talking about myself.   After saying something that is rude the “sarcastic person”, in lieu of apologizing, will often just explain that he or she is in fact a sarcastic person and therefore you should not be offended.  The funny thing is that after the person explains to you that he or she is a “sarcastic person” you are expected just to put up with his or her pejorative comments.  At first I thought that the “sarcastic person” was very similar to the “no offense but [insert rude comment] person”.  I have come to realize that the “no offense but person” is much better than the “sarcastic person” because the “no offense but person” at least warns you before he or she is going to be crappy, the “sarcastic person” just lets it fly whenever.  

How did “I am just that type of person” become a socially acceptable excuse to do things.  This could have all sorts of untapped potential.  For instance, I like money and I find it useful to do certain things.  So, I guess you could say that I am just an “I find money useful type of person”.   Hmmm…. banks have money I guess i should go get some, since I am just that type of person.  After I rob the bank I will just tell the cops that I am just an ” I find money useful type of person”, surely this would clear up any problem with the robbery because that is just who I am.  From that point on the cops would just know who I am and it would never be a problem.  Two cops are walking down the street and they see me mug an old woman on an electric scooter, before one of the cops could chase me and beat me up the cop that knew me could politely inform his or her colleague that I am just an “I find money useful type of person”.  All would be well. I would have my money and any pain caused could be alleviated because the offended party would realize that is just who I am.

I know that we are all fallen creatures.  People will struggle with different issues and be prone to different types of jerkiness, but as Christians “that is just who I am” can not be an excuse for crappy behavior.  If your crappyness and jerkiness is so ingrained to who you are, that is a real problem.  If you were a “abuse alcohol type of person” you would go to AA, try to get help, try to cease being that type of person.  By making a character flaw part of who you are it does not allow people to hold you accountable or ever offer correction because in doing so they would be criticising who you were at the core of your being.   

So I say, lets just call things what they are.  ”Sarcastic Person”= “Crappy Behavior”  Maybe instead of coddling our character flaws, crappy behavior, and sinful leanings we should repent and ask people to help us change.  

Again, this may be about me. I hope this blog is not seen as crappy behavior.

Kelly told me that my last blog was really depressing and that I needed to write a new one.  She said that it sounded like I was in a place that I did not want to be so I decided that I should clear the air.  I am very happy with were I am at in my life. I love Fuller.  I am learning a lot and I am excited about the prospect of putting what I am learning into action someday.  We live in a real nice community and we are building some really good friendships.  Kelly and I recently started a college group at church and though it is small we are having a lot of fun hanging out with college students.  So I am extremely happy with what is going on but occasionally I really do miss Oregon. 

I was getting ready to go to a night class and Kelly told me that it was getting chilly out and I got really excited.  I know the idea of being chilly is a common feeling for the rest of the world that actually has discernible seasons, but in California it still feels like July.  All that to say I was happy for it to actually feel like fall and I went to my closet and pulled out a nice sweatshirt.  As I walked to school just being able to wear a sweatshirt put me in a particularly good mood.  I don’t think that I ever really appreciated the weather in Oregon.  It was an annoyance that you just had to deal with but I never really thought about how nice it was to never really know what you are going to get, I miss unpredictability.   

It really made me think about how many things I love that I really take for granted.  (I have found my self missing mud lately but that is for another blog.)  Oftentimes our lives are so ordered that we lose sight of the blessings that surround us because we have grown so used to them.  I know this is no great epiphany.  My prayer is that I might always be reminded of how my life is blessed. That I would be able to take joy in the little things like sweatshirts, mud and the changing of seasons.

There were some that said it would never happen again, that the pessimism would not rear its head again but alas it as returned.  It was not nearly as profound as last time but I was just sitting here and I realized, that once again, I was just downright annoyed.   

I have decided that it is annoying to know things, particularly what God wants you to do.  It is hard to be in one place all the while knowing that you need to, or will inevitably, be somewhere else.  When you know what God has called you to do you have to either move forward with what is required, or do nothing  and both of these options can be difficult.  Moving forward means that you have to make tough decisions and trust that God will take care of you.  Doing nothing means that you are constantly thinking about what you need to do and that is a tremendously difficult way to live.  So that is why knowing things is annoying…

Another thing that annoys me is not knowing things.  The problem with being anoyed with both is that I don’t know how to function with being annoyed with both.  It is not exactly a workable lifestyle.   And that is maybe the most annoying of all.

Since moving to California Kelly and I have become pretty big fans of Disneyland.  We purchased season passes about a month ago and we live close enough that we can easily go and spend an afternoon or an evening there.  We decided to go there yesterday after church and when we arrived we were meet with an interesting site.  Occasionally Disneyland has special days that are geared toward certain people and we happened to go on a day that  was extra special because there were two special days.  Not only was it MIley Cyrus’ sweet sixteen birthday party but it was also the 11th annual Anaheim Disney Gay Day.

It was kind of intersting to see these two groups mixing together and I am not sure that such a large repersentation of these two groups have ever been mixed together.  You had literally thousands of gay men all dresssed in red shirts to show that they were in fact there for Gay Day.  There were equally as many young tweens who at the mere mention of Miley Cyrus would surely die with excitment.  By observing these two groups for a day I have come to a number of conclusions.  

I am scared of Miley Cyrus and I think that she might be a cult leader.  There were ravenous packs of crazed little girls moving like a swarm of locust throughout Disneyland devouring anything Cyrus as well as sending churro vendors running for the hills.  It was scary.  I kept joking around to Kelly that I though I saw Miley.  She would get mad and tell me to be quiet because she did not want me to start a riot.  At first I though that she was joking but then I realized that it was a real concern and decided that being trampled by a mob of prepubescent girls that are all jacked up on energy drinks, churros and Miley-mania is not the way that I want to go out.  So when faced with the craziness we did the only safe thing,  we backed away slowly and abandonded the madness.  

I also though it was incredibly useful that you could identify people based on the color of their shirts.   You could glance across a crowd that day and discern that the large group of men in red shirts were there for Gay Day and not just a large group of Hannah Montana devotees, although they could have been both I guess. I think that we should use clothes more to signify what we are about.  I am not advocating the wearing of t-shirts with christian slogans but the use of clothing to make it easier to judge people.  Judging people already comes easily to most people but this would make it much easier.  Here are a few examples: 

You can usually identify someone who works in an office by the attire he or she is wearing but I think it could get much more specific.  For instance, I am a business man who likes golf and sleazy romance novels this could be signified by the wearing of a crushed velvet shirt with a green tie.  Then you could see someone walking down the street and immediately say “what a pervert he reads smutty novels” or “I hate golf, what a idiot”.  This would work really good in the church as well.  For instance,  say someone wanted people to know that they were a moderate Calvinist, who only sings worship songs that were written within the last two years, and that they think that Jesus is one “hip” dude.  I would wear flip flops, khaki shorts and a yellow polo shirt (preferably Lacoste).  That way people would look at me and think, “Wow! God preordained that guy to be one hip dude and know the best worship tunes”. 

If only everyone could get on board with this idea, I could know how to judge people in much less time. I could judge without ever even having to talk to anyone.  Awesome.